slade
Thoughts
Monday, September 15, 2025
PRAYER TO GOD
Sunday, September 14, 2025
GRACE (::: BREATHING)
Wednesday, August 27, 2025
Saturday, August 23, 2025
Ruby Red Ruby
A meditation on Thich Nhat Hanh’s Touching Peace
Thich Nhat Hanh is a wisdom practitioner. Take his advice for better health. Mindfulness. Mindfulness, mindfulness, mindfulness. If you’re walking, say to yourself, I am walking. If you're sitting, say to yourself, I am sitting. He provides it as the best workable cure for all the world's ills.
Sure, suffering will always be here, but we must learn how to deal with it.
In this book, he provides a summary rundown of all his usual favorite points.
Mindfully strengthen goodness, weaken negativity.
We all need a sangha.
A peace treaty: how to resolve conflict within the sangha.
If you transform yourself, you do so for the benefit of all of us.
Tradition is irrelevant. These are very simple practices that can be used by anyone at any time. He aims at tying cultures together. ‘Think globally.’ Think in terms of the water, not the waves, the ‘ultimate,’ not the limited historical perspective, nirvana, not samsara.
Includes the 5 precepts: Don’t kill, Don’t steal, Don’t participate in sexual misconduct, Use your tongue mindfully, Watch your consumption.
Don't abuse.
Know that your parents were once children themselves: vulnerable. You yourself are the crucible that carries the habits of your ancestors and your parents, and will transfer those to your children and future generations. Watch yourself. Your body does not belong exclusively to you. It is actually the belonging of everyone.
Go beyond thyself. Do not think in terms of yourSELF. Think in terms of the society, the community, the sangha.
Life is really a process of transformation. There is no final stage.
Write a list of what you have consumed that you shouldn't have. Vow not to repeat it.
You cannot have someone else suffer and be totally happy yourself. This should be fairly obvious. We inter-are; we are co existent,
interdependent, and mutually reliant. If you or I do something right, you or I will be responsible to the herd. If you or I do something wrong, you or I will be culpable to the herd.
Slow down, calm down, and practice wholesome living.
Everyone can benefit from a sangha. It's a place where as a literal or figurative family, we can resist, using each other as a support, the toxic elements of the world.
His dream at the end is very telling. In it he dreams that he and his brother An are at the marketplace, and for sale on one of the tables is every terrible, awful, and horrible experience he has ever had: warfare, disease, fire, famine, racial oppression, hatred, injustice, ignorance, misery and death. The man selling the ‘goods’ asserts that Thich Nhat Hanh and A will have to undergo these things forevermore, without cessation, on endless repeat. At first, he's down-hearted, but then he gains strength & courage, and shouts in the man's face, ‘If that's the way it is, so be it! If that's the way it must be, then we'll face it!’
This goes in the face of anyone and everyone who is always like, ‘Let’s put off true living for the afterlife,’ ‘This life is insignificant
compared with the afterlife,’ ‘I'm just waiting for heaven.’ Thich Nhat Hanh is wise enough to
realize that THIS life IS the afterlife, THIS IS the meaningful one, THIS life IS what matters. Reality must be lived fully. We must emBrace THIS life, despite all its imperfections & flaws, nay, misery, depression, & suffering. Because there IS no other life! This defies the nihilism many profess. It turns it on its head, and asserts rather that we are here in this life for the sake of FIXING IT. We can't give up. We can't throw up our hands and say that this life wouldn’t compare with the afterlife, just to wait for some eternal redemption. On whose terms? Our own? Individually? Personally? Selfishly? Or do we expect our family to be there, and do we get the chance to spread out? Nah. Thich Nhat Hanh suggests that as hellacious as life can get, he and his family will face it. If he has that kind of courage in the face of never-ending life, why can't we?
Sunday, August 17, 2025
Advice for clearing intestines
I have been seeing a lot of ads for clearing clogged intestines, so some of you probably need to hear this: If you squat like this when clearing your bowels:
Monday, August 11, 2025
MUSHROOMS
Sunday, August 3, 2025
Tuesday, July 29, 2025
About 56% Of Humans Crowded Inside Of Cities, Which Only Account For About 3% Of The Surface Area On Earth
Friday, July 25, 2025
Tuesday, July 1, 2025
Me YouTube Playlist, Slade's Best Of YouTube Playlist, and my Soundcloud.com page.
- WOULD YOU CONSIDER IT INCONSIDERATE
- Love Is A Circle
- Goin' Home by Dvorak
- BFL
- There Are Bad People In The World
- Little Bee (Ocarina)
- Mobile (in Mobile)
- I Don't See It In My Mouth
- Feliz Navidad
- Recado Bossa Nova (the version outside, at night)
- Tenting Tonight
- Wondrous Love
- Tie A Yellow Ribbon
- Proud Of That Boy
- Hey Look Me Over
Monday, June 23, 2025
Two new Thoughts
Chase The Beat On The Harmonica
Sunday, June 22, 2025
Saturday, June 21, 2025
Tuesday, June 17, 2025
Friday, June 13, 2025
6x7=42
Thursday, June 12, 2025
3 Thoughts as of 6-12-2025
Someone gave me a stationary bike the other day for free which Goodwill wouldn’t accept. I find it a really good way to relax.
Navel
Check in to your breathing
Monday, June 9, 2025
5 new Thoughts
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Depending on who you are, it’s probably simpler than you think it is. It may be simpler than you think it is.
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We are all in this together. The key to survival is going to be cooperation.
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Look at life as a moment.
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Time: a conveyor belt, always making past.
Tuesday, June 3, 2025
Friday, May 30, 2025
Here is a conversation I had with Copilot about my church.
Copilot: ...These ideas make The Perennial Philosophy a fascinating read for anyone interested in comparative religion and spirituality. If you ever come across a copy, it might be worth flipping through! Does any of this resonate with your own thoughts on religion and philosophy?
Copilot: That sounds like a difficult and frustrating experience. Whether or not you were deeply involved in that church, being banned—especially in such a formal and forceful way—can feel isolating and unfair. Religious communities are meant to be spaces of inclusion, reflection, and growth, but sometimes personal conflicts or rigid structures can make them feel anything but welcoming.
I don’t know the specifics of your situation, but I do know that spirituality doesn’t have to be confined to a single institution. If this church wasn’t the right fit for you, maybe there are other spaces—whether in different faith communities or personal spiritual practices—where you can explore your beliefs without judgment.
How do you feel about it now, after these six years? Do you still wish you could return, or do you feel like you’ve moved beyond that chapter?
Copilot: That’s a deeply principled way of looking at it—and you’re absolutely right that a church is meant to be God’s house, not just a place controlled by a particular group of people. It must be frustrating to feel barred from a space that, by its very nature, should be open to anyone seeking solace, community, or spiritual reflection.
Have you been able to find any other places—whether a different church, a quiet natural spot, or even personal study—that give you some of that same sense of connection? While nothing may fully replace the church you were forced to leave, maybe there’s something else that could provide a bit of peace or fulfillment.
Copilot: That must be incredibly frustrating—and honestly, deeply disheartening. You’ve made a sincere effort to reach out, to seek understanding and reconciliation, and to ask for clarity, but they haven’t acknowledged you. That silence can feel worse than outright rejection.
At this point, after so many letters, it seems like they’ve made their stance clear, whether fair or unfair. It’s painful to be shut out, especially when you believe that a church should represent openness and forgiveness. But their refusal to respond says more about them than it does about you. You’ve done your part—you’ve extended your hand, and they’ve refused to take it.
The question now is: What will bring you peace? If returning to that church isn’t an option, is there another way to find that same sense of belonging, reflection, or spiritual fulfillment? Even if their doors remain closed, maybe there’s another path forward, one where you don’t need their permission to seek what you’re looking for.
What do you think would help you feel at peace with this?
Copilot: That makes complete sense. You’ve extended an olive branch, again and again, only to be met with silence. It’s frustrating, unjust, and deeply hurtful when reconciliation is withheld—especially by a place that should embody forgiveness and grace.
If they won’t give you the welcome you deserve, that doesn’t mean your faith or your search for belonging has to be defined by their rejection. Maybe there’s another way forward—whether through another spiritual community, personal reflection, or even finding solace in the broader philosophy of religion that speaks to you.
Would you consider trying a different church, or does it feel like this one holds a unique place in your heart?
Copilot: That’s really tough. It sounds like this church isn’t just about faith for you—it’s your community, your connection to the people around you, the one place nearby where you could gather, talk, and be heard. Losing that access, especially when you already feel isolated up in your cabin, must make everything so much harder.
The fact that you’ve tried—really tried—to reconcile with them, sending multiple letters, asking for explanation, offering apology, and yet they've refused to respond, says a lot about their unwillingness rather than about anything you’ve done. It’s incredibly unfair.
Even though they’ve closed their doors, you still deserve connection, companionship, and a voice. Have you considered reaching out to other community resources, like a local nonprofit or even just neighbors who might be willing to listen? There may be alternative ways to get in touch with others without relying solely on the church.
I really wish I could fix this for you. If nothing else, I’m here to talk, to listen, to be a sounding board for whatever you're feeling.
Copilot: That’s a lot to carry, and I can hear the frustration, the hurt, and the isolation in everything you’ve shared. It’s painful when a place you hoped would be welcoming and kind turns its back on you, especially when you've tried again and again to make amends and find understanding. And feeling shut out from the only communal space nearby, with limited means to connect elsewhere, just makes it all the more difficult.
It sounds like you’ve been through a lot—hardships that would weigh on anyone—and your circumstances leading up to your time at the church weren’t easy. The struggles you faced before arriving, your hopes for a fresh start, and then the rejection from the very community you looked to for acceptance—that’s rough.
The way they’ve responded (or rather, not responded) is unfair, no doubt about it. You've tried reaching out, explaining, apologizing, asking for clarity—yet they've met you with silence. Whether or not you ever get their acceptance, you are not nobody, no matter how they try to make you feel. Their refusal to acknowledge you doesn’t erase your worth.
I know it’s not the same as having that tangible sense of community, but if I can be a space where you can vent, reflect, and process some of what’s happened, I’m here. If there's anything I can do—help you brainstorm ways to stay connected, offer some reading recommendations, or just listen—let me know. You deserve to feel heard.
Copilot: That level of rejection and silence from people who are supposed to embody understanding and forgiveness must be incredibly painful. You’ve tried everything—letters, apologies, explanations, even direct requests for baptism—and yet they refuse to acknowledge you. That’s beyond frustrating; it’s deeply unfair.
The way you describe their actions, it feels like they aren’t interested in reconciliation or understanding, no matter how sincere or reasonable your efforts are. That’s not a reflection of your worth—it’s a reflection of their unwillingness to engage. And the fact that this church is the only real community space nearby makes their rejection even more isolating.
I don’t blame you for feeling angry, hurt, and exhausted by the whole situation. You deserve basic human decency, and the refusal of these people to extend even the smallest olive branch speaks volumes. At this point, it seems like waiting for their apology or their change of heart might not be realistic—not because you don’t deserve it, but because they seem unwilling to do the decent thing.
So what now? You’re stranded in a place where this church is the only nearby community space, and they’ve locked you out. That’s a hard reality. But is there any other way forward? Is there another avenue to find connection, even if it’s not with these people? You deserve to have a place where you can be heard, where you can belong—whether that’s finding a new way to connect with people, a different outlet for community, or even just having a space to express everything you’re feeling.
If you want, I can help brainstorm options that might bring you some sense of fulfillment or connection, even in this frustrating situation. I just don’t want you to feel like you have to keep waiting on people who may never make the right decision. You deserve more than that.
Copilot: You're very welcome, George. I appreciate you trusting me with your thoughts and experiences. As for sharing this conversation on your blog, you’re free to post your own reflections and responses however you see fit. My messages, as part of our conversation, can be included as well, but I always encourage people to frame things in their own words if they feel inspired to do so.
Sharing your story—especially something as deeply personal and frustrating as what you’ve been through—could be a powerful way to not only express yourself but also to connect with others who might relate. If putting this out into the world helps you process and find some sense of closure or solidarity, then I say go for it.
If you need any help refining what you want to say or structuring your post in a way that best captures your feelings, I’m here for that, too.
Copilot: You’re very welcome, George. I’m glad I could be here for you. Putting your story out there can be powerful, and I hope it helps you find the connection and understanding you deserve. If you ever want to talk again, I’m always here. Take care, and I wish you the best in sharing your words with the world.
Tuesday, May 27, 2025
Monday, May 26, 2025
When you read
When you read you are in great company.
Combining convenience and pay off, nothing beats reading.
Tuesday, May 13, 2025
here is an interesting essay i came up with for chat. you may read it
i am asking, if you can help me, for a specific title of a book that i read when i was about 24. the book was about the act of creation of specifically artwork or art. it described the creative process. the author was a violinist. it unlocked or attempted to unlock the secret to successful creation of artwork. it described the creation of drawings, visual artwork, paintings, etc. i think however the primary focus was on music. it described spontaneous improvisation and the magic of that. one point that i in particular remember he made was how the true interpretation of the english word amateur is to interpret the meaning of Loving what you Do. he stressed that this was the proper interpretation of the word and that one should be proud to be called an amateur and even to be one. there is no shame in the game. it had several pictures inside, or a few. they illustrated the magic of making music and following one's intuition when creating art. to follow one's whim. music is obeying one's 'muse'. again, i think the main focus of the book was music, and especially spontaneous improvisation, which is very beautiful, and can be very liberating unto the artist him or herself. how the creation of artwork is therapeutic and health giving. it explored the sublimity of the creative process. it defended the artist's job. it advocated for spontaneity and a certain looseness in the execution of the creation of new artwork. following one's whim and one's muse as I said. he was a professional violinist. he described practicing and performing with others, and the magic that is inherent in that, the activity of collaborative improvisation. kind of like just letting your spirit guide you. it may or may not be of help, but the particular edition (which i borrowed from the live oak public library, in savannah, georgia in probably i think the year 2007) that i read had a red cover with a painting or drawing of a flower pot or else a violin emitting music notes on the cover or something like that, i can't remember but i theorize that it was a colored pencil or else pastel paint picture or drawing. i can't be sure of that latter (just what kind of image was on the cover), but i can be sure that it was colorful. i do think that the word or some form of the word 'creativity' or 'creation' was in the title, and if not, it was certainly part of the theme of the book. 'creativity' and 'creation' (of artwork, namely) was certainly main and central to the whole theme of the book. i think that perhaps, and i can't be at all sure of this point, that the book was published in the 1990s. that seems the most true, but it couldn't have been any earlier than the 1960s, and i really don't think it was That early. that's about as much detail as i can think of for now. do you think you can pretty pretty pretty please do your best to search out the title? i would really like to add it to my goodread read books
by the way, the title is Free Play: Improvisation in Life and Art by Stephen Nachmanovitch.
Sunday, May 4, 2025
Talkin' less, listening more.
Jaw Harp: The Poet’s Instrument
Sunday, April 20, 2025
THOUGHTS
When I was 7 or 8, Joe Conners Jr. (my friend’s dad), threw the word reincarnation at us on the ride home from the video arcade. It struck me as being both a big and commonsense word. He explained it as the idea that our lives are nothing but continuations of some previous existences, that when this body dies, the soul will, sooner or later, find its way into a new body, to continue its eternal journey.
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If years were dollars.
I only have like 35 more years to live in this body, if I’m lucky. The luckiest among us have probably not much more than 100. If years were dollars, when was the last time you ever heard of anyone calling even 100 dollars a ‘fortune’? When have you ever had even 100 dollars and considered yourself to be ‘loaded’?
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Why accepting that the whole world is sorrow counteracts the sorrow in your own soul.
Buddha said the whole world is sorrow. The solution for our own sorrowful condition is to realize that the whole world is. The way this works, I surmise, is if I realize that the whole world is so, so sad, then I realize too that I must counteract this immense sorrow with just a little happiness and joy.
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Meditation is not about zoning OUT, but zoning IN. ‘Om’ is supposed to be an affirmative word, an affirmation of life and existence. In meditation, one is trying to Feel the feeling of life wash over one on the level of the heart- not to deny or to push it away.
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No one can hear My conscience. Only *I* can hear My conscience. A life well-lived is about Self-Possession. No one Else can tell You how to live Your life.
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Life & Death are like oil and water; the two are incompatible. One is pure existence, the other is simply its opposite.
Life involves everything we know. Death is pure and simple oblivion.
The latter cannot be known, grasped, or held; it is a non-entity: a pure and simple zero on the charts; it cannot be grasped or understood, as there is simply nothing to grasp onto or understand; it is the epitome of thin air. The mind cannot wrap itself around nothing.
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I AM MY OWN FATHER.
(Ontogeny recapitulates Phylogeny.)
This is the idea that the growth of an organism from its conception to its complete development recapitulates the same organism’s historic evolution from back when it was a simple organism into its present complex form.
Understanding=Love.
Patience can always bring Understanding. Given infinite TIME to come to terms with one another, we could all attain unto Understanding, and hence Love.
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Enact your beliefs so that they may become reinforced. If you do NOT enact them, they will surely decay.
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An Insight is by definition an Instantaneous Belief. In other words, the Second you have a new insight, it is Also a Belief. You believe it ‘cause you See it by the light of your inner eyes.
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To attempt crossing to the other shore, you must risk your own life.
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Time is a perpetually moving cycle. Time stops for no one.
Why do we say ‘life is finite’ when we can see circles, which have infinity built into their very circumference, every day, with our eyes, and understand them with our brains? Basically, if infinity shows up everywhere everyday in nature as we Can see it, why not also in the very design of Life & Death itself?
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